I'm having this persistant problem. Ever since I started cutting again about a week ago, all I want to do it cut. I have been able to put the urges off but it's like I need to make up for all the time I didn't spend cutting. At the same time I really don't have a good reason(if there ever is a good reason)to do it. I just want to. A lot. And ( Read more... )

2 months. Two months and I haven't cut. And now I have broken that record. I don't know what possessed me to do it but it was like someone else was controling me. I didn't want to, but I really didn't put up a fight like I've one before. I just let it be. It felt good. I want to do it again. I want to have a cruch again. Everthing seemed to be ( Read more... )

hey, i wanted to know. does tanning in the sun help cover scars or make them less visible, or does it make the scars show more and accentuate them when your tanned.

Little or no meaning to this community.
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i wanted to stop. i stopped for a year and ten months until recently. my friends are being supportive and my boyfriend is being supportive...they all want me to stop. but they don't understand. they don't understand how i feel. how much it hurts. they don't acknowledge my feelings. how am i suppose to stop if no one understands me?

I don't seem to have feelings anymore ( Read more... )

a razor blade at the time was like a best friend that would concole you and make all your pain go away.we drag the blade accross our flesh and watch the blood flow down our wrist and drop by drop it would hit the floor,what a sudden relief.its not an easy task to tell someone that pain and blood are calming.we hide our skin so the world wont judge. ( Read more... )

so today I was having an awful day, I couldn't stop peeing (which i'm going to the doctors for as soon as my parents get me an appointment), I got in trouble for having to go to the bathroom and then my mom got pissed because the house was a bit untidy. I threw away all my blades and such but I had a lighter. I flicked it on and i couldn't get the ( Read more... )

my boyfriend dumped me and i didnt really care at the time. i just cried on the phone to him to make him feel bad but looking back i guess i really did care thats why i cried. i stopped cutting for him but when i didnt see him for 2 weeks at a time over a 7 week period i just got to the point where i didnt give a shit and knew he wouldnt notice so ( Read more... )

I am dying. I can't cry my pain out anymore. My eyes are dry! One of my best friends...My ex girlfriend can't handle me and my ways. So she told me...We are done...No talking I can't even look at her... Man, I blew up... I threw shit everywhere I nearly stabbed my neck...but I didn't...Thank god! But yeah...I hate this shit!I gtg before I get ( Read more... )