from what I'm feeling isn't right. You say things that make me blush and make me smile, but what is truth is your Mr. G Smooth and honestly, what makes me stand out so much that you want something with?

I'm beginning to feel sketchy about all of this.

Maybe I'm better off.

I'm screwed.

I'm so fucking screwed. This isn't happening. Fuuuck.

It's 330am and Nicole is gunna be here in like 6 hours. Uggghhh.

I just want to talk too him now. He made me blush. Many times.

The beacccccccccchhhhhh on Wednesday with Nicole and HOPEFULLY, Baltimore with Brandon and Erik if they can. With this whole situation, it's going to be hard but he said he's going to try so I have faith in him. We planned to meet at Fort Armistand ( Read more... )

I need some big changes. I'm thinking about colouring my hair. Chopping it short. Buying new clothes. I'm thinking about running to California and getting out of here because this isn't home anymore too me, too many memories of my past living here and I just want to forget about everything. I want to forget about the relationship I had. I want to ( Read more... )

I'm bewildered and bothered. The one person I've ALWAYS had a crush on and everything, he's back and he's with someone but is all like.. you want my nuts like last summer.. He's amazing. He even told me that he was for me, more then Chris ever would be.

So, pretty much Chris and I broke up again. This time it's done and over with. Pretty much, he says I haven't changed and yada yada. One, I'm not going to change my entire life just to be with him. I can't help what is going on with my mom; and him basically saying "well I'm not putting up with this for the next few weeks. fuck that" mentality just ( Read more... )

I miss being the scared naïve little girl that I once was not knowing right from wrong and being able to get away with anything and everything just by batting my lashes and giving the big blue puppy dog eyes ( Read more... )

Chris and I got back together and he's already pissed off at me because I was told something that was untrue and what the fuck am I suppose to believe then anyhow when he broke up with me. So yeah, I'm off to go skim boarding with some friends... I don't care anymore, I really don't. My cell's off because he was wrong to punish me when I didn't do ( Read more... )

MARK THIS AS A MEMORY.

today has been awesome; and it's all because of craig and johnofin.

OH YEAH BITCHES LOOK AT THE MOOD. it says "happy."

It's time for myself to be happy. No more tears. No more saddness. Just HAPPINESS.