i can't be without you.. but you're breaking me apart. literally dismantling my soul piece by piece. and there's not a single thing either of us can do about it.

i'm not quite sure what's changed.

but something has.

you don't look at me the same way.

last night when we lay next to each other.. i looked as deep as i could into your eyes and saw next to ( Read more... )

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Whoops. Slightly let the team down on "keeping myself updated" on what I've done in 2008. Nevermind.

Well.. I have some lovely news. I recently had two little baby boys!!! Well.. when I say "had"..


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Exam and revision = Stress and no time to think, let alone be creative and write about what you're thinking.

I'm not really sure how to sum up today. It's been a mixed bag of various emotions..namely negative ones.

Fear, Exhausation, Unmotivated, Desperate, Frustration, Weakness, Paranoia.

I did have an episode of Relief, Accomplishment and Contentment though. So it's not all bad.

I forced myself to start my Business coursework and had to REALLY force myself ( Read more... )

 Past few days have been good ones.. very good ones. Outlook on life is currently positive!

2008 is all about becoming free, remember? Free of worries, heartache, repetitive arguments with the same people about the same thing.. rid of all these nasty thingss. So far.. this is working.

Nick was here for the last efw days, went home this morning. It ( Read more... )

Oh.. and one more thing..

New Years Resolution #8471250639 - Got to stop saying 'fuck' and 'shit' so often.

 I'm quite impressed by how frequently I'm updating this. It's a first, for sure.

Nick is in bed and completely sound asleep. I've come into the living room to try and tire myself out by writing on this. You never really manage to pinpoint the frustration of not being able to get to sleep. You think you understand how frustrating it is.. then it ( Read more... )

Once again, my motivation to do revision and other uni work has disappeared ( Read more... )

The day I have been waiting for since 17th December has arrived.. sort of.

My Gare bear is returning.


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