well, i had another challenge today, but unfortunatly, this one didnt go as well as yesterday's... i dont like to brag, but i KNOW i whooped mikhail in the challenge today, i was sooo sure i was going to win, and then he asked me a minor scale! damnit! i dont know any minor scales, i didn't think symphonic band kids need to! crap! lol oh well, it's ( Read more... )

i did it! i got 1st chair back in band, finally! that's a whole lot of weight off of my back, it took so long to finally set a challenge with nestor, but i beat him, and i dont care if you think i deserved it or not, because i practiced day and night non-stop to beat him, and it felt fucking good. i feel so accomplished... the minute, when clark ( Read more... )

Wooo what can i say, i just felt like summarizing what's been going on ( Read more... )

Man, i feel like crap on every other day, but always great on the rest of them... my life schedule ( Read more... )

man i really am stupid! i dont know, ugh, i'm trying to live, i dont want to bother anyone anymore, but i open my stupid mouth, say a couple of stupid things, and now i'm probably on the verge of fucking up one of the greatest friendships someone could ask for, i'm not in the position to take anything for granted... i'm not going to say things i ( Read more... )

I havn't been in a good mood in a while, but rescently, life has been kind. i owned in my midterms and my grades, wow, i havnt had such great grades in a while, and i'm studying alot for the SAT, the subaru STI is so going to be mine, all i need is a real high score and my dad promised me that car. Woke up this morning at 5am, having to go to the ( Read more... )

jeez!! i overslept damnit! just woke up.. oy! i hope my teachers let me make up my midterms x_x

i needed some rest though, the last two days i only slept 3 hours, and now i got 13 hours hehe, my body really needed it, my mom's going to kick my ass now though o_o

God has this great way of just making me want to fall on the floor and give up. I don't know what anyone's beleifs are, but i beleive in both God and Karma, what goes around comes around. Honestly, my beleifs are falling down to ground zero along with my trust in everyone. i wish i could start over.. not care for anyone and forget what having ( Read more... )

I'm not too sure what came over me today. i was working out when i got the weirdest de ja vu. it felt like i had done the very same thing once before, but for a different reason. usually, i try to get stronger cause i know what i want to do when i grow up, but i need to be strong to do it...but over time you forget your motives, your morals. when ( Read more... )

guess who!! it's been soo crazy lately! but i'm back and everything's almost back to as normal as i can get it. it's been forever since i updated so here goes! i hope everyone had a great new years, mine was so crazy!!! i've never been drunk before, and i dont think i'm ever ganna drink for a while, it was fun at first, hugo and i just drank ( Read more... )