i have so much to write about and i know i should get it out.. but i just haven't been in the mood. i don't want to write a long entry right now. i've just been so upset lately ( Read more... )

this hurts SO much. i will never be good enough for him or anyone. just kill me now please.

i am feeling so sad. it sucks. these past couple of months i have been feeling pretty happy for the most part. i've felt much better than i have this past winter because i actually go out and have a life again. i still get really depressed sometimes though and i just don't know what to do about it ( Read more... )

i had to stay after school for a whole fucking hour. it made me so pissed. if i have to stay after that long for school it automatically puts me in a bad mood for the rest of the day. i called my mom alittle bit before 4 to come pick me up because i didn't feel like walking home. we stopped at walgreens and got me eyeliner, hair dye, and a magazine ( Read more... )

i've been too lazy lately to write entries. i attempted to write a long entry yesterday but ofcourse i got a waol. it pissed me off so much that i didn't bother writing it again ( Read more... )

i am falling for him so hard. i don't know why i like him so much. i just have such intense feelings for him. i just really want to know if he has the same feelings for me. i get so sad if i go a day without talking to him. i'm considering on having sex with him but i'm thinking it through carefully. we'll definitely have to have a talk before it ( Read more... )

ah fuck i think i'm getting attached ( Read more... )

i left a very brief entry last time. haha. YES I DID HOOK UP WITH BRYAN. lol. it was quite fun but man i'm sore. i don't regret it at all. i'm just having my fun, yo. he got bigger muscle wise and he's got alittle beard going on. sexy. he seemed more interested this time somehow. i dunno. i hope so. we did it in his car behind some building. lmao. ( Read more... )

i finally got to see bryan today. 'twas fun ;) hehehe.

i was walking to school today and my foot started bleeding. lovely. i already had a cut on it and i guess my flip flops pressed up against it. there was blood all over. when i got to school i went to the bathroom and tried to clean it off a bit. then when i got to 1st hour everyone looked at my feet and were all like 'OMG what happened to your feet ( Read more... )