there is like nothing to do today. it sucks. it's so fucking cold out too. i really don't know where me and bryan stand right now. i talked to him today and he wasn't really talking much at all and it just didn't seem like he was interested. he seemed the same way on wednesday when i IMed him after we couldn't hang out. he'll just put his away ( Read more... )

bryan was supposed to come over today but he got lost on his way over here and he was running out of gas and didn't have any money on him. i was kind of upset ( Read more... )

oh god. i really think i'm falling for him again. i talked to him on the phone the other night for like an hour and a half and it was so great. maybe i'm being naive and i shouldn't be getting involved with him. please don't go tellng me to stay away from him because this is my choice. i think some of my friends are hinting at me to not start ( Read more... )

i didn't sleep AT ALL las night. i can't seem to sleep anymore. it was thundering last night and it was fucking scary. it was like almost 4 a.m. and i went to go unplug the computer because it was thundering and i didn't want things to get messed up. my parents heard me and they yelled at me to shut up and go to bed. my mom thought i was on the ( Read more... )

i didn't sleep AT ALL las night. i can't seem to sleep anymore. it was thundering last night and it was fucking scary. it was like almost 4 a.m. and i went to go unplug the computer because it was thundering and i didn't want things to get messed up. my parents heard me and they yelled at me to shut up and go to bed. my mom thought i was on the ( Read more... )

i started talking to him again.

i think things *might* actually work out this time.

i am so fucking pissed off right now i could kill someone. i am through being nice. from now on if someone pisses me off i`m just going to tell them to fuck themselves and spit in their face.

they say they care about me and want me to be safe but i know they secretly hate me and don`t want me to have any fun ( Read more... )

i`m incredibly bored so i might as well update. everyone, i`m assuming, is celebrating easter and i don`t really celebrate it so i`m stuck at home by myself ( Read more... )

i`m not going to be scared anymore. if i want to do something i will just do it without any hesitation. this includes checking my weight ( Read more... )