i always seem to be a C plus piece of work in my college writing courses. im not doing it to impress anyone, but a lot of the times i put heart, soul, and sweat into my work. when i know i wrote a good piece, i think about. i overanalyze. i dream about it. i live in it. i write to apologize. i write to heal. I write for therapy. I write to get my ( Read more... )

when people make comments about me being weird, i try not to take it offensively. believe me, people still think i am weird and they point out things like, "everyone will look at what youre wearing" or "dont say that, they might think something". my whole life i was just trying to fit in, no surprise, im normal. but by doing this, i find it to be ( Read more... )

Ive always been race conscious, but never really recognized it until now. I grew up in a semi-traditional Filipino household, where my parents would talk to each other in our native language and held normal traditions, but insisted my sister and I talk english. "It's better that you don't know," my mom would say to us, "I didnt want you guys having ( Read more... )

does anyone watch Current TV? well one of my favorite segments is a show called Infomania with Conor Knighton. Its funny and smart. Anyways, ive had a crush on the dude who does the White Hot Top 5 for quite a while now. So I found him on facebook...


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Facebook is where the people from Myspace ran to when Myspace got a bit "ghetto". By "ghetto" i mean, kids with blinkiez and sTicKy cAps, that arent ashamed to promote clubs and post pictures of their bo0obz. Myspace, now, is a bit juvenile compared to what Facebook has become. Facebook, is like middle class, for the online community. There aren't ( Read more... )

I am never in one place for too long. The past few days I have been on planes, trains, buses, and cars across California and Nevada. I finally celebrated my 21st birthday this weekend in Las Vegas. I know, so cliche, but I have been there way too many times as a minor. Now that I can enjoy an alcoholic beverage in public without stressing, I might ( Read more... )

no money, no food. but i surround myself with good friends.

should i be happy?

if you havent noticed, i always believe that i have everything so figured out. I always diagnose myself and try to find my problem. I make lists that I will never refer to again (only refferring back to prove a point.) I dont make it obvious to what im doing, but what a lot of people dont know about me (if they dont know me at all) is that I am a ( Read more... )

i dont know what im chasing. you think you want one thing, but instead you find out that wasnt what you wanted in the beginning. i need to find the people who balance me out. without them, i am a hot mess. i am self destructive - i will harm myself until there is nothing left of me. i need to take advantage of this city.

its only tradition for me to update on my birthday. this day has taken forever to get here...im finally 21!!! ive been drinking all weekend. exhausted and dehydrated. oh and did i mention, ive been eating way too much junk food, soo groooossss. its all downhill from here ! hah im only kidding!