2009, Im breaking up with you. We had a bad relationship, starting off rocky with hookups ... never a good thing. I cried, I laughed, I grew older. I moved out, and realized maybe it wasnt really what I needed. I shouldn't complain because I didnt work as hard as I usually do, but Im sure 2010 will be time for improvements. for reals this time ( Read more... )

i decided to sacrifice my education for my family. san francisco it was nice knowing you.

going into the new year with a negative outlook. why must i think this way?

ive always known that if i want something the only person to get it is myself. i am determinted.

this winter break i am focusing on being with myself. i have depended on my friends too much. i feel bad that i have asked for help too often. they are great people, but what i really need is to learn things on my own.

on December 11, 2009, I was arrested along with 65 other students for protesting at Wheeler Hall in Berkeley, Ca. Wheeler Hall has been peacefully occupied by students since Monday so as I knew this information, I walked into Wheeler Hall at 1AM on Friday aware that i could get into trouble. We were just studying, trying to finish my paper before ( Read more... )

as we get closer and closer i always wonder to myself: how did i get here? everyday i learn something new - if its about the people around me, the life around me, or just me in general. i like to remind myself of who i was 10 years ago, 5 years ago, last year or even two hours ago. its always good to refer to the past but not to live in it. i dont ( Read more... )

Back in 2003, I was a 14 year old kid who dreamed of being like those girls with pretty faces, great wardrobes, and cute boys. I was convinced no one was looking at me - ever. Makes sense. I would lock myself in my room and feel bad for doing absolutely nothing. Well I guess we all have experienced this teenage angst, and at the age of 21 I could ( Read more... )

i sit in bed, the only place that really feels like home in this city, and watch the light in my room dissappear. i am in the dark, so alone, so vulnerable. there are thoughts running through my mind, over and over again: to do lists, ex lovers, what i have said in the past, what i should have said in the past, 5th grade, high school, the 70s. ( Read more... )

i dont want to come off as a one sided person. ive been given certain opportunities who have shaped me into the person i am that is behind this keyboard. i was once a very serious person. i was a girl that built up a wall. you could not get into my head, because i couldn't even get into my own head. ive lost that person. that certain mystery to ( Read more... )

wow ive got so many emotions running through my head. the past 24 hours i thought a lot. brainstorming mostly. ive been getting weird visions and dreams - like something bad is going to happen to me soon. is that paranoia? whatever it is, its freaking me out. i just need to relax because maybe im stressed out. my family is going through so much and ( Read more... )