my parents raised me to always be the best. for me, this included being competitive in school, being a good daughter, surrounding myself with the best people, and living with the best things. what they did not teach me was that there is a difference of being the best person you can be and getting the best things. i thought that being the best ( Read more... )

i don't care if anyone thinks im full of bullshit, at least im showing my true colors. some people may be offended, but i know its real.

I am currently on the floor of my friends apartment using my iPhone to blog. I am experiencing deep emotions and my feelings of being away from my family are changing. I love them so much and it makes me feel so horrible because I feel like I've been selfish. Being at home isnot good for my health. Apparently it's not good for my mother either. My ( Read more... )

I usually spend everyday at lunch alone. I don't really have anyone to talk to when Im at school, so I sit alone and eat lunch. I am not bothering anyone, not spying on anyone, so you would think people would stay away as I sit and eat my lunch. As I was getting up to go to class, a girl probably (around 21-23 years old) comes up to me. In a thick ( Read more... )

Winter break was really fun. I did everything I wanted to do. Reminded me of high school vacations without my parents bitching about everything. I did a lot of partying - clubbin, bars, getting drunk. But i spent a good amount of time with my family which means a lot to me. Like I said, I am really starting to appreciate them as I grow older ( Read more... )

When I was 8, I got God's gift to women - breasts. I was the only girl in school to actually wear a bra for a reason. The rest of the girls wore bra's because they wanted to look older and more mature. They wanted something I dreaded - to be like their mothers. My mother knew that day was coming and I had assumed she walked herself through it. She ( Read more... )

recently, i have been staying in with my family. if this was a year ago, i would have thought this was torture: attending to my parents needs or babysitting my little brother. i would spend days in my room, feeling miserable. i was obviously unwell when I lived with my parents full time. coming back home after a 3 month break, i have come to ( Read more... )

after watching my sister choose friends who are not local and that are posted on the internet, i come to wonder, should we make friends that make us better people, that love us for who we are and not what we have made ourselves to be, but at the same time challenge us? OR should we make friends that worship us, that are obsessed with us, that want ( Read more... )

i wish i was good at telling stories.

do i care that im still single? its been about 2 or 3 years since my last relationship and i find myself getting used to the fact that im single. im not crying about it every night, which is good, but im starting to feel really lonely. i shouldnt wait for anyone because the only person that can bring me true happiness is myself - but i feel as if ( Read more... )