im mad cause i cant get my belly button pierced. i dont trust the place i was gonna go to to get it done. they do all the things i read you were'nt supposed to do. but really, i'd be straight if they'd pierce it with a barbel, but they refuse to for some odd reason. so im like fuck it, i'll keep my money and buy something for my niece or something ( Read more... )

wow, me and my ex-bestfriend are talking again. i'm actually not very cautious about it though, because i stopped talking to her. she didnt really do anything to me, she just said some foul shit about my other ex-bestfriend.. and like, i was kinda dumb cause she was a good friend. she came to my job the other day.. and now we're talking again. i'm ( Read more... )

i'm caught between.. what i think i want.. and what i know i dont but am tempted to have anyway..
chris stirred something in me, but kenya is becoming more and more tempting.. because he's trying to do the things that chris should be doing.. and i want that affection.. and chris isnt here to give me what i need. what's a girl to do?

so i dont know what's going on between me and chris right, cause we haven't had a real conversation or spent any real time together since a week ago today. he still be actin like he down or whatever, but this lack of affection is fuckin with me foreal. i need affection. i'm an attention whore, i need that too. and right now i'm not getting either ( Read more... )

i think i'm trying to distance myself from him. i dunno. i always do that when i feel myself liking somebody too much. and i do like him too much. and i'm not sure if that's a good or bad thing ( Read more... )

i know i just posted like 30 minutes ago, but like.. somethings on my mind ( Read more... )

today is the last day i'm off until Sunday. that sucks. i had to go cash my check and gas up my car.. came home. chris stayed after school and aint ask me to pick him up so i was like whatever. both chalisa and dede walked out in front of my car when i was leaving school and i was SO fucking tempted to hit them. but that's an automatic 4 points on ( Read more... )

okay so like.. me and chris were supposed to spend time friday right, cause like since his birthday was tuesday.. we were gonna have sex high or whatever.. cause i aint ever did that before and he was like if ima try it.. try it with him. but like, after a couple conversations we decided to wait on having sex so we dont fuck our relationship up. ( Read more... )

so like.. the past week has been kinda crazy. me and chris have gotten so much closer. he was gone last weekend to visit his dad and everything right, and he came back sunday. i got off early so i went to go see him for a lil bit before i went home. his mom/stepdad were arguing so we just kicked it in my car. at first we were just messing around, ( Read more... )

So um.. me and chris are talking now. we had decided to take things slow.. but things quickly progressed to where they were before we stopped talking in december (which really wasnt farther than kissing). we said that we were going to be friends for now, and then lovers.. but i was like i dont wanna be your friend! so i changed that to good good ( Read more... )