today was the best day i've had in a long time. woke up this morning, picked up shanice, then went to kenyatta's house to chill. we decided not to go to school cause the school was on some bullshit tombout keepin us in 1st block for 3 damn hours and dont none of us like it, so we just skipped that class. so we was just actin a ass and havin fun and ( Read more... )

i dont even care about my eric situation anymore. i'm not feelin feelin him anymore. we were supposed to fuck today, matter fact we're supposed to be fucking right now, but i don't feel good. that and the fact that im tired of kasey, dominique, and josh (me them and eric used to all work together over the summer) lookin at me like "i knew she had ( Read more... )

my heart hurts. i'm torn between what i have and what i want. i have good dick, that i want to continute getting because i am not in a relationship. but i want a relationship when oddly enough the only person that i'm interested in is the person that i am fucking. not good.

i keep doing all of these stupid things to make myself feel better. and it ( Read more... )

i dont know what i was thinking by starting this relationship with him. i can't be cut-friends with anybody. i am the queen of committment, yet here i am trying to make this thing work. i do want the dick. all the time. but i want a real relationship with him. and even though we were talking before we ever had sex, there's still that old saying ( Read more... )

oh god. he wants to beat again. it's not that i dont want to or anything.. it's the fact that if i keep fuckin him like this, i am gonna develop feelings for him. i already think i want a relationship with him (i mean more than this cut friends thing we have going on).. and the whole reason we ever had sex in the first place was because i used to ( Read more... )

It's official: I am not the type of girl who can have sex with someone and go on as if it never happened and not develop feelings for the person ( Read more... )

i was right. i dont have feelings for him. i just needed to make sure. now i dont care if danielle talks to him or not. i told her she could have him and to have fun with him. i called him and he made me realize EXACTLY why i quit talking to him: he's immature. he was being so childish about the situation, when we're too old to be playing these ( Read more... )

okay well, nevermind. i think the only reason those feelings i had for him came back up were because i HAD to think about him. but at least if he does end up with my friend (which i dont really think will happen).. she wont try to piss me off about it on PURPOSE, like 9526349364 other females at my school would just because they know me and him ( Read more... )

I feel the need to write down my thoughts so here I am. I am in some sort of dilemma right now, with my ex-whateverhewas and one of my friends. This boy, me and him were sort of together from October 04 to June 05. I quit talking to him because he wouldn't commit to me (well, he already HAD, but refused to be my "boyfriend" because he was scared or ( Read more... )

man, i dont even know anymore.