Jordan went home today. That sucked balls and a half. Had to happen eventually, but it still sucks. But, I had fun while he was here, and hopefully he did too. <3 He was a bit home sick anyway, so it was good for him to get his little nigger ass home.

So I didn't sleep at all last night. Jordan left around 11 something this morning, and I crashed ( Read more... )

I'm feeling very..awkward, at the moment. I guess that's a way to put it. Awkward and confused, about what's going on inside my head. For the past few days i've been thinking, and I guess i've come to the conclusion that i'm tired of being the way I am, tired of feeling the way I always do. Yet at the same time I feel like there's nothing I can ( Read more... )

So today was pretty much one of those days that you wish you could just wake up from a horrible nightmare and everything that happened wasn't real. To bad I don't get luck like that.

We'll start from the time I woke up, which was 1:00 pm, and I didn't get to sleep until about 9:00 am. That's only 4 hours of sleep. Not very good for you, let me ( Read more... )

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If my feelings could be anymore torn than they are right now, I wouldn't have any.

Not to do list:

• Fall in love with someone you know you can't have
• Cut yourself because you know you can't have them
• Try to committ suicide because everything piles up and the one person you need to talk to isn't there
• Smoke a pack and a half of cigarettes in one night, leaving you none for the next day
• Fight with your parents over stupid shit