i haven't updated in about a year, so i guess it's time to write a few words just so a few know i didn't die.

i got a new book. it's wonderful.

it's the first christmas without my papa, so my mother and i are going up north tomorow for a little while.

for the ones that care, i'm, ok.

and that's all of my personal life i'd like to share.


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Say your goodbyes.

Strength is bullshit ( Read more... )

It feels like, I'm dieing.

Today is my sister's 20th birthday ( Read more... )

Today I watched a movie called Graduating Peter. He's mentally challenged, and he graduated highschool with everyone else. It made me cry. I thought about all of my friends, who sit around and fuck themselves over every single day. They're going nowhere, for no reason. I mean, they could be anything they want to be, but they make the decision to do ( Read more... )

i woke up happy this morning ( Read more... )

i want to sleep so badly tonight, but my eyes are so heavy it seems they're too tired to even close. maybe three days could be something to be impressed with, rather not. eating seemed like such a battle today, more so. i put it in my mouth, but my jaw wouldn't chew it. it couldn't chew it.


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found out i can't get my ink until i can pay for it myself, that's ok though i think i'll have a car wash or something ( Read more... )

i get off the train, hug my gramsie. get in the car, turn on the radio. but it isn't the radio, it's my papa's voice. he's singing. and i just froze. how can my grandma listen to that every day. it would rip me apart., then i came home, and his shoes are right where he left them before he died. they haven't been touched or moved. everyone was in ( Read more... )