so my parents left, they didn't say how long or where to. but last night a few people came over, and we got one bottle of captain. it went fast, so we decided we needed another one. resulting in two empty bottles. i don't think last night could have been any better. or any more naked. we pretty much stripped down and went swimming and were really ( Read more... )

i hear i'm a shitty person
and i wish i could disagree.
i hear i should stand up for myself,
but i only believe in standing up for what you believe in.
so what would i be standing up for,
after all.
i'm doing the best i can
to be remembered as someone with a good heart.

i hear i'm a failure,
i know.

so since i've been off grounding,
i've managed to not be sober for ANY of the time.
i have school tomorow, and nothing to give them.
each day i wake up and say to myself,
ok don't drink right now or don't get high today.
but shit always comes up in my day, and i don't turn it down.

hahahaaaaaaaaaaa.

woo, i'm fat now.

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I was at Soup Plantation today with my parents ( Read more... )

It feels so good to look at someone and close your eyes ( Read more... )

here's to new beginnings ( Read more... )

The funeral wasn't too bad. Except for the part where I thought about my papa and kept picturing him in his casket pretty much the rest of the day. I did think about things though. Like, things I would want to do before I died, the things I would miss. And I came to the conclusion that if I'm never happy again, I at least want the chance to make ( Read more... )

family, stop dieing ( Read more... )