I can't believe all that's happened lately. Kenny and I are back together and it's wonderful. I missed him more than I let myself believe. Adventures rule.

He hurt him. It's all my fault. I wasn't even there to stop it, or even to comfort him after it happened. I'm the worst boyfriend ever.

I'm in my room. I don't know why. I haven't slept in here in so long, and now that I'm here I've hardly been able to sleep. We had a fight. It was so stupid, I don't even know what it was about. I don't know why I didn't just stay and go to bed. I was tired but I didn't want to sleep, that's what it was about. Why do I always screw ( Read more... )

I have no idea what's going on anymore ( Read more... )

It's been an odd week or so. I haven't talked to Kenny in a few days. Rob's been letting me sleep in his room so I don't have to go to my room and possibly run into him. Rob's the best, I don't know what I would've done without him ( Read more... )

He loves me, I love him. Not enough.

I trust him- but I don't think he believes me because that's not enough either.

I'm not enough.

Why am I so upset? We were already broken up anyway.

I'm going to bed, because if I don't, one of us is going to end up more hurt than we already are and I don't want that, especially for him.

I felt so bad when I went to see Rob today, he thought I ditched him or something because I haven't talked to him since the other day. I didn't mean to ignore him, I've just had a lot on my mind, but it's all okay now. I think. I'm not really sure, but I talked to Kenny today. I told him what happened with Jeff and he didn't freak out and leave ( Read more... )

These past couple of weeks have been strange. I don't know what to think anymore with Kenny, I know I love him but apparently that's not enough. He gave me his liquor, what he didn't give to Dr. Allman anyway. I missed getting drunk, I don't have to think so much and it's better than sleeping. For some reason, I woke up insanely early today, and ( Read more... )

Sitting in the common room, curled up in a blanket with his notebook.This isn't good ( Read more... )

A few days late but Happy New Year, I guess. Let's hope anyway. I'd make a resolution but the only thing I can think of is to stop sleeping so much and I don't think I can do that. I think Kenny's mad at me for sleeping so much. I'm just glad the holidays are over, I hate to say it but I'm actually missing my family lately. They called on ( Read more... )