i just realized, i'm really wierd. and awkward to be around.

maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me.

constant and blunt. a flank pain that be described as nothing more than a loss. i've lost everything. everything i own and everything i have. things inside myself are missing. i can't figure out how to put it back together or fill the voids and it's hard. it's actual work. leafing through the emotions ( Read more... )

i think it's time to pack my bags. [again] start over. a new life. with new people, new place, new family. this place is toxic and not only is it toxic but lonely and empty as well. the only place i'll ever feel whole again is at 1084 joselson avenue. and it's a memory now. the only time i was sure of anything was there. and after that the changes ( Read more... )

new changes everyday. before i get a chance to adjust, i'm recieving yet another curve ball and i'm not sure how much more i can take. i keep telling myself, god grant me the strength but somehow i feel i've possibly grown out of the belief that if i pray or hope or wish hard enough it will all get better. maybe i havent grown out of it. maybe i've ( Read more... )

 abusive and abrasive. the life im living and all it's demons are tearing into a hollow person who doesn't have a very good default defense mechanism. when the time is right it'll all come together and i'll understand just exactly why everything happened the way it did. although it seems i am all alone in this, i'm sure there's someone who cares, ( Read more... )

 what'll it take for you to surrender? 
i gave you a taste oh, how you've grown. this great trial, this self denial.
it's a trial to leave you clean cause
i like it dark and low, you know

 how did this happen ( Read more... )

torn between thre decisions. oh, three is a big number. two i can handle, most people can. two is easy. but three, now that's a horse of another color ( Read more... )

i love you. you are so perfect in every way. we fight. we yell. we scream. i love you through everything and although i tell you many times in just one day i feel i still don't let you know just exactly how much i do love you. you make me feel like no one ever has. you are unlike anyone i have ever met. i am more grateful than words could ever ( Read more... )

fuck school