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I am out of my mind.. or maybe I'm not. I've had a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach for like 2 days and I can't put my finger on it.. I hate it too.. cause my stomach gets into knots because of it. I don't know I really don't. It doesn't help I had dreams Ed broke up with me but like 4 different times all last night.. fucking horrible. I don't ( Read more... )

eddyy is in rehab
he comes home in 12 days
good thing cause i'm close to my breakinggg pointtttt
i love ed cieslak more than oxygennnnnn and i need him like i need it toooo cause i feel like im drowningggggggg

Soooooooooooo Ed is currently in my car sleeping ( Read more... )

I don't know why this feels like soo bad. I knewwww it was coming and I thought I prepared myself for it. Today is 3 months... :( MY heart is breaking knowing that he's leaving me on monday. I'm gonna cry. I can't believe I've found the person I want to spend the rest of my life with and now he's being taken away from me. This rips my heart out I ( Read more... )

this is going to be the hardest thing i'll have to do ( Read more... )

this is going to be the hardest thing i'll have to do ( Read more... )

I'm @ the Fitz casa! We had a slumber party last night, it was glorious!! Welllll gonna go get some starbucks peace out.

Oh & I love Ed more than anytthingggggggggggg

uhmmm I don't know why I'm typing this entry, maybe because I actually want to keep up with this stupid thing haha. I'm so hungry I should eat and then run my errands before work but knowing me I won't do that till 1:30 CAuse I gotta be a lazy bum for a littleeee. So Molly is having people over saturday!!! Yayyyy Ed & I can be beer pong partnersss ( Read more... )

Yayyy I just customized my journal a little. I <3 Pink Floyd... anyway.. so things have been pretty good aside from the fact I got a $650 phone bill and am paying that off.. and that my family hates me cause I'm going out with Ed.. and that I still owe 150 on my car.. it's okay though cause I STILL haven't been happier :) That's a good sign. ( Read more... )