Have you ever gotten in the car and just driven without a destination in mind? Just following the road until you reach its end? That's what I did today. I've been feeling kind of unhappy lately, like there is something missing from my life. I need this to be more than it is. Today has been quite horrible thus so far.

I'm starting to fashion an idea in my head, where I would impress you with every single word I said, it would come out insightful, or brave, or smooth, or charming, and you'd want to call me, and I would be there every time you need me, I'd be there every time, but for now I'll look so longingly waiting, for you to want me, for you to need me, for ( Read more... )

On another note, I called Clay last night because I had to tell him something. I talked to him for all of two minutes before he informed me he would call me later that night because he had to go move his car. Guess who never called? It's times like those that make me want to hit him in the face. He is so callous and I hate it. I don't want him to ( Read more... )

The Tall Steve situation worked out, I think. Fortunately one of their band's guitarist's guitar broke, so they had to stop practicing. Tall Steve said we could just come " get our drink on " at his house instead, but we said we were in Uptown and we'd try to stop by later. Then we called him and said we didn't think we'd be able to make it. ( Read more... )

Sometimes I hate feeling so innocent and naive. I just end up looking dumb. So Megan, Jenny, and I were going to go watch Tall Steve's band, Bled By Angels practice today, just for something fun to do. We called him to ask for directions, and he started telling me how if he wanted him or his friends to buy us alcohol they gladly would and that we ( Read more... )

Here's a letter I'm writing to you, of all the things I never could have said and it's the truth, it's the letter you're burning from me,  of all the things you never wanted to hear, I don't know what I'm trying to say, stencil in your heart, into another's hands and you're saying nothing, nothing at all, I don't know what I'm trying to say, ( Read more... )

I just had one of the best conversations I have ever had with Kevin. That is so cool. However, some things were said by me that could probably offend some people if those certain invidviduals were to find out. Let's hope that doesn't happen. But the truth hurts ...

Whatever happened to nights like those?

Last night me and Megan started the sunglasses project. People were willing to help - well, most were. A lot were especially receptive. However, I'm sure my sunglasses are quite dirty now. Oh well. Now I have to print out all the photos and put them all together.

I feel like I have been neglecting Jen, Megan, Rachel, and Netra lately. I don't want ( Read more... )

Tonight I went to see Crashing By Design, Four Letter Lie, the Fallback and two other bands at the Ascot Room. It was really fun, and I got to hang out with Megan and Jenny again. The guys from the Fallback are so nice. They accidently sold me a blank CD, so I got a new CD and a free t-shirt. That was pretty cool. I was dissapointed though, because ( Read more... )

I decided to bring Kristina to Finch with me. I'm really glad I asked her to come. John is coming with us too.

// You make me feel so alone.