Don't really use this thing much anymore.
Life right now is new.
I am different.
I am always someone different.
Matt and I aren't together anymore.
We're on a break.
I'm okay.
I work all the time.
I go to school.

I do miss him, though. 

 I'm still with Matt, he's the greatest thing ever. Sweet and caring, we barely fight..he's so understanding it's ridiculous. I can be myself, there is no competition for his time or affections..because it's mine when i want it, and i always do.

losses.

i still miss you, ya know. sometimes i feel like i'm taking your memory for granted because i do ( Read more... )

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A howl escaped his mothers lips,
the clinking of the wheels on the chair made even angels cry,
falling in the arms of one another,
our shoulders heaved,
our faces wore tear stains with utter grace and pain.

Looking out over the day,
todays the day it should rain.
As the world mourns the loss of you,
Heaven should celebrate in the receiving of you.
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Mike and Nick came here today, we sat and looked at each other and hugged. It was so different to hug them and close my eyes and remember his smile. And I can't stop hearing your voice, see your smile..that infectuous beautiful smile. Fuck, Nick is so broken up about it...you were the greatest friend Nick ever had. Probably ever will have. You were ( Read more... )

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If you come softly
As the wind within the trees
You may hear what i hear
See what sorrow sees.

And if you come I will be silent
Nor speak harsh words to you.
I will not ask you why,now.
Or how, or what you do.

We shall sit here, softly
Beneath two different years
And the rich earth between us
Shall drink our tears.

It's such a sad sad poem

Cidney

Hold me like you'll never let me go.
Cause the colors are brighter than ever.
The words run across the screen,
and I cant stop watching.

Strange thing is, I'm the one producing them.

Anyway, I've been tripping since about 2:30 this morning. We were at Claire's house, I left there around 6 am..she only lives like a few streets away.

Start of the ( Read more... )

Today is a really good day. A fabulous fucking beautiful shiney day. I'm not really sure what has me in such a great mood. I woke up this morning feeling like I was on some sort of speed. Maybe I am, sometimes my body goes into over drive.  However to counteract this I smoked a big fucking bowl of California Cush. That I got FO FWEE. So, that makes ( Read more... )

Apologies.
This you will never hear from my lips again.
I am not sorry,
Completely unapologetic for what I've got to say.
You're not a part of my life anymore,
Believe me...
It's better off this way.

We had our days,
The bad and the worst.
So many times I pictured myself killing you.
I guess thats what love is.
Each day you kill each other,
Murder-
It may be.

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