i put in my two weeks notice yesterday, and today i had an hour long "heated" discussion about why i'm leaving ( Read more... )

i'm pushing through these days with the hopes of something more than what i have, of going beyond where i am ( Read more... )

max came back into my life recently. i let him in when i was hurting in new york. i called, and called, and called. when i got back to orlando he came to stay with me ( Read more... )

I am lonely in ways I never imagined I could be. I have lost too many people. I have said goodbye to friends and boyfriends and family and coworkers and I'm sad for it. You could say I've brought a lot of this on myself, and I won't argue. But you cannot say that I don't feel the worse for it, because i do. I have lost a lot of the trust and faith ( Read more... )

she's gone ( Read more... )

doing better, doing worse... it's constant and nauseating.

i'm feeling sick and she's doing worse. they're not giving her much time.

my family is a mess of emotions, no one wants to admit to how they feel. we're always too loud without really saying anything.

i wanted to post an entry detailing the past few months of my life, but i'm really not up to it right now ( Read more... )

i'm swelling with so many emotions that i cannot contain them all. it's fucking me up. my insides are shaking with nerves-ous energy. i'm synergize-ing.

oh, and hello world.

it's too much and always
not enough.

can someone please tell me who i am? because i'm not sure i remember (as if i ever knew)

and this is so emo
and i am so emo
tional.

you can go throw up now.

i was driving home tonight, listening to static on the radio when i heard what sounded like a bowling ball dropping into a box filled with delicate wine glasses stacked atop one another. .