For some reason, I just have this one topic stuck in my head so I have to just rant about it. I honestly hate how guys seem to think I'm 'so attractive' & yet none of them ever have romantic interest in me. Maybe I'm just overanalyzing the situation, but I think there's something wrong with me. There has to be something about me that turns guys off ( Read more... )

I'm totally not happy with my body image right now. I'm ugly as fuck, my hair's a mess, my nose is too big, my tits are too small, I have no ass whatsoever, I eat far too much for my own good & I think I could lose a couple pounds or so. There's something wrong with me but I can't seem to put my finger on what it is ( Read more... )

K so this is the type of shit I do when I wake up at 7 in the morning. Beautiful did it this morning, so I had to as well. Don't ask questions, just accept it & deal.

( I wouldn't piss to put you out. )

I'm tired but I don't wanna go to bed. K so that's cool. Anyways, I hung out with Andrew & Mike today, which was fun. The three of us along with Will & Tommy went to Amherst for a while. Hung out with Kubo & Sam, who were drinking. I smoked them up, they shared the alcohol with me & Mike, it was fun. Then we came back to Noho, Andrew dropped me, ( Read more... )

Last night was just a spur of the moment thing, I guess. I dunno why I made a big deal out of anything, & I'm fine now. Even though I don't think I took my Zoloft last night... whatever, my mom's been stealing it anyways ( Read more... )

I have no one. I'm not trying to be emo, I'm not looking for sympathy, I'm not looking for attention, I'm simply stating the facts. There's really nothing worth living for anymore. All I am is miserable & all I do is make myself suffer. I'm alone & I always will be, which I just cannot deal with. Is it bad that I was afraid of coming home tonight, ( Read more... )

Comment if you read this. No one does anymore, or no one comments at least. I really love how people give a shit. If you didn't catch that sarcasm, shame on you.

Yesterday was crazy. Went to Ruari's with Zack, Jasmine, Alex & of course, Ruari. We chilled in his garage for a while & we had.. THE HOOKAH. Sadly, of course, it didn't work for shit since the tube was all fucked up. I still got fucking BLASTED out of my mind, & it was what I needed. Then we started walking back into town & we saw Andrew! :o) He ( Read more... )

I miss the Andrews. I didn't see Pip yesterday & St. Amour's still at camp. I'm really scared that things with me & St. Amour are gunna be so different when he comes home. I think he's coming back on Saturday but I'm not sure about that. I love him so much, I really do. I love both of them. It's crazy. I reeeeeally want St. Amour to come up here ( Read more... )

I have so much I want to say right now but I don't know how to say it right ( Read more... )