so.. ive come to the conclusion that everyone and everything in my life is either going to let me down or abandon me. ill never get the chance to be just happy, ill always have fear because i lose everything. i want you to be happy, but i NEED me to be happy. ive convinced myself that i will end up old and alone, i just know it will happen. ill ( Read more... )

i wish i could be content, that i could honestly be 100% happy with my life, i wish that i always wanted to be alive, that i could put myself first, i wish i could love myself, i wish i didnt memorize calories and fat grams from everything, i wish i could eat and not feel guilty, i was happier thirty pounds ago but at the same time i wish i were ( Read more... )

Superchick- 'courage ( Read more... )

Just a little bit stronger ( Read more... )

went to rutgers this weekend and got pretty shitty. it was mad fun, kimmie was there and i got to see a lot of other people. im glad i went. rowan in 3 weeks possibly? idontknow a lot of people say it sucks but whatever. taylor comes home in three weeks? yeh sen

i have 39 nights left to sleep in MY room ill miss it. 40 days left to walk around and do whatever i want in MY house ( Read more... )

i found my perfect puppy.. shes cute and smart and too expensive for me for alteast another month :( i want her so bad but by the time i have the money shell be gone ( Read more... )

so its true my dad really is gonna make me get rid of my cat i hate him hes heartless and i want to get rid of him... he's making up all these bull shit reasons as to why so whatever ( Read more... )

my house is sold.. im going to miss it but im SO pumped

im getting sick again