so we're already on the second day of 2005. I just watched the repeat of Hollyoaks and I feel sad because it was sad and Dan's dead and I get waaayyy too upset over fictional people. Newyears eve was good, i suppose. I had an absolutely brilliant year.. but i didn't have that same feeling as sometimes. like, two years ago, 3 years ago.. i'd just ( Read more... )

but things just get so crazy, living life gets hard to do
and i would gladly hit the road, get up and go if i knew,
that someday it would lead me back to you
that someday it would lead me back to you.

so yesterday was so much better than i thought it would be. my dad fucked off most of the day so that was nice. and my mum cooked the luuushest food and ( Read more... )

i bought all my xmas presents today. i'm unable to do anything until the last minute but it was fun though.. miranda came with me and then we went to my house and watched Babe, because it was on tv. i just watched nightmare before christmas with my brother and watched shrek earlier with si. I have square eyes now. happy christmas xxxxx

yaaaayyyy miranda's coming over x)

so i didn't go up on friday, kat did.. and then i went up and met her on saturday. hour train journey and i playd pokemon all the way. we were staying with these guys, and i thought she knew them really well but then i found out later she'd only met them like, twice or something! one of them kat had kinda got with, and didn't smoke J. same as kat. ( Read more... )

for the past 3 days i've been working at tudor rose. which is spinny because i worked there last year. but thank fuck now i will do nothing until newyear. tomorrow i might be going to birmingham on the train with Kat because she wants me to go and live there with her next year and i told her i would. i was drunk like hell when that happened, but we ( Read more... )

waiting for, chasing, words you want to hear. just a sign, so i know i'm not wasting my time, but probably you can't give me that. oh MY GOD. if i could go back to that moment in the graveyard, above the park, i would've said more. i would've made it more.

5pillsfridayLove<3's. i will give it a rest for a couple of weekends now though. maybe not. if ( Read more... )

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edit/ man,this is all bollocks. endless boredom, too much to do, too many ideas, no time, nobody there, and i'm always wanting somebody. where is my special girl? how the hell do people cope with this. i don't think i can, and nobody really gets that because shitloads of kids my age probably feel this way but I CAN'T DO IT. i'm contradicting ( Read more... )

OH YAAAYYYY THANK FUCKING HELL. i finished working at ATP today. it wasn't a bad job or a bad place but i cannot handle work. i'm wrong. firstbase i'm sure will find me another job very fast. BUT NOT TOMORROW! TOMORROW I CAN SLEEP! AHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA. i added jonn to my msn. i'm talking to matt j. we're talking about lonelyness and boredom.

simon burnt the GLC cd for me. and just now i spoke to his american whore. apparently though, he was telling the truth about how they haven't e-mailed for the past 3 months. i don't really care today though. we did lovehearts last night. & they actually were really pink. nice but made me sick coming up. i've found myself chasing jonn kind of.i ( Read more... )