i really try and stay as positive as i can, but lately SOME people make that extremely difficult for me to do. i really just want to start working, make my own money, and start saving up so i can support my son on my own if i have to. i hate living in my house. i'm never good enough or do anything right. i'm always told how to raise my own son. ( Read more... )

today i'm writing up an arm workout. i've been watching lots of youtube videos and writing down some exercises. i want to have a stretch warm up and then at least something that's a half hour long. i need to do it once it day, maybe even twice. i realized that now i'm going to start working, i can bring healthy food to work and shop at my own store ( Read more... )

i have a great feeling about today! i have a job interview at 430 and i'm all ready and prepared. i just need to finish my hair & makeup. i'm showered, nails done, eating lunch and updating on my day so far! it's all about the good vibes today. i really hope i get this job at shoprite. it's literally right down the street and it opens soon. i'll ( Read more... )

this morning right after my post, i found out about the plane crash in my small town of east haven. two houses were hit and both caught on fire. from what i know right now, a woman was screaming about getting her two babies out of the house. a 13 year old, and a one year old infant. i thought, i couldn't even imagine if that was me. a similar ( Read more... )

well it's raining! probably not going to take a walk in this. & i really wanted to clean my car today. if the rain let's up i still might. i just made a pot of coffee and i'm going to play with logan until naptime! i found these workout videos my mom must of bought years ago that look interesting haha. anything to keep myself active on this very ( Read more... )

As much as i've been distracted lately, I feel as if my life is falling into place. This past weekend I went to Maine to visit family. It was a nice break away from reality. This week i've been busy with dentist appointments because I've been procrastinating it for a few years now. Today was my root canal, it wasn't as bad as I expected it to be ( Read more... )

So here's the story! A friend of mine recently stumbled upon her LJ I was curious as to if I could still remember mine & HERE I AM :) ++ I've decided to make this a public, motivational fitness journal. I'll be posting daily my meals, diet plans, tips & motivating quotes ( Read more... )

( the best memories of my life )

.. today i was going to get my nails done , cuz i thought that would make me feel better but they didnt have a spot open until 2 and its only 11;30. so i asked my mom if i could wait at leanders house until then and she said no. then i got in a pissy mood and told my mom that i didnt want to get my nails done anymore. i do and i dont though. then ( Read more... )

it`s 12;00 and i still havent heard frum leander. my moms taking me to khols later cuz we're getting new sheets and a comforter for me. i found carebears ones in the catalog this morning and they're 50% off ; ) weeee. so my mom is buying them for me. anyways cuz i was so bored i did a quiz thing ; ..

favorite bands ;O1. taking back sunday ( Read more... )