true love waits.

things change so much. it's insane.
i really don't know what to expect anymore. i'm keeping all doors open.
i've closed off my senses. 
it's just easier to not feel anything at all than to feel like this.

finally.
i deserve this.
i deserve you.
thank you. thank you.

 i swear that i'm going to start writing again.

it's so funny to look back on old entries. when i was sooo worried about mark; so much so that it took over our relationship. now that we're apart looking back is hard. it fucking sucks. i was so naive. sooo soo young to be that in love.

i'll pretend like i'm ok.
i'll pretend.
i'm ok.
i'm ok.
i'm not ok.
i'm not ok.

life is rawr right now.
i don't know whats going on anymore.
i'll write more as soon as i can get a new layout. this one is bothering me.

I called ( Read more... )

i'm sorry i haven't updated lately. school has been a bitch, but it's not that bad. and things are getting better. i have great friends. and homecoming is comming up soon, and i'm excited. life is finally falling into place i think. i've been waiting a long time for this so i'm really enjoying myself. and someone really needs to help me with an lj ( Read more... )

i'm wondering why it's worth it ( Read more... )

uuuuuum ( Read more... )