timorous;;

[__seriesofblurs]

I have a feeling this is going to get much harder.

that maybe I'm not doing the right thing.
this all seems unreal.
and I don't know what to do.

things are falling apart.
friends
family
you
me
.

I think I need to leave for a while.

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Comments

[openarmsofmine]

well, if it doesnt feel right, then don't do it.

whatever "it" is.
unless you have no control over "it".
then nevermind, I'm just a dumb shit.

[__seriesofblurs]

If you're saying that I shouldn't drink or anything, I haven't. I haven't since that one time at Jake's house. I haven't been doing anything. I haven't even been going to parties, no matter how much I want to. I just don't.

Right now, I'm just frustrated. I'm frustrated because none of my friends that I used to be really close to want to hang out with me anymore. I'm frustrated because people judge me because I smoke a cigarette every once in a while. I'm tired of the drama. I'm tired of people close to me lying to me.

You have no idea how bad I really just want to give up on everything right now and start all over, in a new town, with new friends, a new life, just so I don't have to deal with it. But I can't because I love everything about my friends, even if they don't/won't/can't love everything about me. Even if they don't invite me to hangout anymore. Even if they don't even like me. But I still care because that's the type of person I am.

I've began to come to terms with a lot of things. It's just hard having to accept them.

[openarmsofmine]

that wasn't supposed to sound rude... my comment, i mean.

and i think most of your/our friends judge you because of the whole pedro thing, not because of the cigs.

but i don't know.
im here to talk to if you need me though.

[__seriesofblurs]

if you knew why I am okay with being with pedro, then you would understand better. I'm not doing this to hurt Trevor in any way, believe me, I would never do that. We even talked to Trevor to see if it would be okay and he told Pedro to "go for it." I'm just doing it becuase I think thats what's best for me right now.

If just me and you could hang out soon, that would be really cool. Then I could explain this whole situation to you.

Here Comes The Friend Ship!

[thestashfiend]

I love you grace and i'll always be there for you, that's what friends are for. not for judging, not for kicking you when your down, but for loving and caring about eachother no matter what. thanks for being there for me. you can come over whenever you want.

<3 Ashetan

Re: Here Comes The Friend Ship!

[__seriesofblurs]

Thanks Ashetan.
For that, the next time I come over, we are going to have sex. Its been a while for both of us.

Seriously, thankyou for being there for me too. I'm really glad that we became friends. Best friends duh... we have friendship bracelets!

I love you!!

[xxpinkieswear]

GRACE COME BACK.
GRACE COME BACK.