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Used
I have been used and taken advantage of for the last time.
I shot 2 SuicideGirl sets today, they turned out to be amazing, I've come very far as far as poses go. Been practicing. I even dream about it.
I am so very depressed, I'm glad I'm not driving home tonight, Jack and I would probably end up dead, I'm sorry.
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work blues
It turns out I have to work today until 9..I'm pretty upset about it. I don't think "on call" shifts are a good idea and they are very stupid. In fact I hate them because I usually make plans when I have an on-call shift and today, the one time my plans may actually go through with Danyo I have to work until 9...he is never available to hang out ( Read more... ) -
Halloween
Last updated: 13 hours ago. In the past 13 hours I've felt depression, sadness, excitement, happiness, anxiety,but not anger. Anger is one emotion I don't know how to control or feel. No anger today. That's good ( Read more... ) -
"I'd like to make myself believe, that planet earth spins slowly."-Owl City
It's amusing to see "last updated 63 weeks ago" considering 52 weeks makes a year. Amazing that I am still here when it was just over a year ago that I almost committed suicide and have the mark on my arm to live with. It's fading now but will forever be there even if no one can see it but me. Nothing is ever what it seems in this world. The ( Read more... ) -
horrible
I'm getting a divorce. -
Thoughts Before Bedtime
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Missing him
so i just got back from texas today and i want to be in california with jake. he's at his dorm for sure right now. probably asleep because he didn't get much sleep the past 6 weeks of basic training. we had an amazing time together. there was one point where he was checking his e-mail in the hotel room and i was drifting off to sleep and he came ( Read more... ) -
Sometimes...
Sometimes... by. Ashetan Kauffman ( Read more... ) -
Sad On The Inside
hey there everyone, how are ya? doing pretty good? that's good. i miss you ( Read more... ) -
Long Time
Wow, it seems like its been forever since i last updated this thing, might have been a year ago actually. i'm engaged now to Mr. Jacob Allen Zanoni which would make me AAZ eventually lol. yes i'm scared but i am also very in love with jake, we've been together a year and 5 months and we've been living together for about 4 months and doing great. we ( Read more... )