LIVE JOURNAL IS DEAD
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everything sucks

i guess it was the birthday blues...i feel betterish but still a bit weird. so the first days of school were ok, honestly i skipped all of my morning classes. well all 2 of them sociology which i dropped and i pretty sure didnt meet that day anyways bc it was the discussion group and we'd have nothing to discuss, and astronomy which i didnt feel ( Read more... )

so im just minutes away from 18 and i dont feel it. i dont feel happy i dont feel excited, i wanna lock myself in a room and cry. i dont know whats wrong with me. sometimes my birthdays make me depressed, but its never been this bad before. i dont want to celebrate, i dont want to see my friends and im pushing myself through these feelings by ( Read more... )

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im so tired. all the time. so i leave in less than a month im a little anxious, mixed with nerves and anticipation. mostly im bored. and it sounds sad but i had imagined that id be fucked up this entire month before i leave, making memories i wont remember. ahh. i havnt been inhebriated since like vals b day party which was a rly long time ago. rly ( Read more... )

so i havnt done this in like a bajillion months. ive been keeping a real journal because i dont rly consider livejournal a real journal so much as i consider it a life bullitin board, just to let the people you care about see how your doing ( Read more... )

k so i got deffered from uf. im pretty upset. i know the practicalities of the situation...."its not a 'no'", "theres still a chance", "its nothing to worry over"..."YOU'LL GET IN". ive heard that last one about 27 times in the last 24 hours. im letting everyone know now that saying "Youll get in" DOES NOT HELP in any way shape or form. at least ( Read more... )

so im seriously stressed about college. and i seriously think i shouldnt go for a year. it makes sense, since im pretty young for my grade and i dont really know what i want out of life yet. going to college now feels rushed. the only problem with my plan is that i have no real talents or skills.foiled again. who the fuck decided that we need to ( Read more... )

so another year. i have'nt accomplished a damned thing. and i couldnt care less. life is ok.
scratch that. life is good. i really cant complain