im always feeling ripped from dreams
with a delayed reaction
not realizing until my eyes have opened
that your face was present
and your touch was almost real
for a moment, at least.
im becoming uncomfortable with comfort
a constant contradiction
my head sleeps in
and my heart is always late.

You see, my mom told me that I could reinvent the whole world. That I had that kind of power. That I didn’t have to accept the world the way it stood, all property-lined and micromanaged. I could make it anything I wanted. I can remember it all now. She said to draw a new map every time we came into a new area. She told me to draw a map of the ( Read more... )

nothing describes where i am in my life right now more than this song from the past ( Read more... )

this distance is the best thing that could happen ( Read more... )

im caught between these wicked sheets ( Read more... )

line the past 5 of us up.
we all look the same.
fair skin.
dark hair.
dark eyes.

too much in common.

a soft spot for a soft heart.

overall, my visit home was enjoyable. it was good to see the family. to reconnect with those who i had feared forgotten me. but, i was disappointed by others. truely let down by a lack of heart. and, at the end of the day, that's okay. because i dont have the time to waste on people who wont waste theirs on me. i realized a lot about myself over ( Read more... )

if theres anything i learned this weekend its not to trust a friendship.
they dont always shine when you need them.
nor do they stick around when they claim sincerity.

its a shame, really.

but it's okay.

i've got to hold onto whats left.

its all wrong.

Spe Salvi.

saved by hope.