I've moved, mostly because I want a journal again. One with no attatchments and previous histories. you can now find me at

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Hola Livejournal! Long time no type.
I'm not gonna lie, life hasn't been going as well as I would anticipate. But I suppose you can't win them all, & I've resorted back to a life of self-destruction to try & fill that void. I'm coming to terms with my ultimate failures, & have realized that this is going to either be a revalation, or the death of me ( Read more... )

Lets just say, I feel awful.

Yano, how in Toy Story, Andy forgets all about Woody for Buzz Lightyear?
Thats how I feel right now. Like Woody. But- I'm not going to push Buzz out the window, because that just means that I'd have to go rescue him. Fuckkk that. I think I'll just stay under the bed with the other toys...

Life has been busy. Vair busy.
I'm not going to lie- i've made my fair share of PLD's already, & its only november. Formal is on the 18th, I can't wait. I'm going with Ryry & even though i'm a bit hesitant, it'll be a blast.  I just gotta find a dress that fits me :|

i <3 my roomie, my new members & I hate this one girl who dropped who was my ( Read more... )

I forgot what being home was like. Its part love, part hate. I love physically being in my house, with my fat ass cat & dog. I hate the drama of my friends. When you grow up, you always think how you & your best friend will be friends forever, you'll do everything together. go to school together, go on double dates together, go shopping, drive ( Read more... )

I don't know what is so wrong with me. I spend too much time dwelling on what i shouldn't, which in turn ruins the here and now. I need a break. I need to not explore my own mind. To not think. To stop being so stupid.
Coordinate brain & mouth
then ask me what its like to have myself so figured out.
wish i knew....
I just want to believe...

I finally got my internet! Thank god for Shed. He came over & hooked up wireless in the triple so im stealing it through the wall ( Read more... )

i don't even know anymore.

My dog & i are sharing a bagel. I went to the Randy Travis & Julie Roberts concert last night with my grandma, terri, andy, payton & valerie. It was a lot of fun actually & we had great seats. other then that, nothing really has been going on. my little boys lost their baseball game wednesday night. saturday night i got really wasted at coreys with ( Read more... )

Its sooo nice out. Days like this make me really wish I had a pool. I don't even feel tan either, which sucks.  Summer isn't exactly going the way I thought it would be. Oh well, I should have known better then to have high expectations. I hate not having money. I hate my family not having money. Most of all, I'm highly upset & confused with Matt ( Read more... )