back from holidays, back to old weight (last year). i must have gained 5 kg, but i'm not sure, i'm too fcking scared to weigh myself. i guess i took a break. a big fattening break ( Read more... )

i desperately need to loose 20 lbs. i have been doing SO bad lately. i've been consuming alcohol, binging and purging a lot and i've been getting way too little exercise. it's not doing me any good at all, i feel so obtuse. this isn't how i want to live my life ( Read more... )

so, i'm actually considering to tell somebody about my disorder and search for help. but who can i tell? i know i'll only shock people or at least change their opinion about me for ever. they'll never see me just as me again, but as a girl with an eating disorder. i don't want that. but i also definitely don't want to stay this way ( Read more... )

i want to cry but i'm just too numb. lately i was doing so great, i restricted my calorie intake and actually lost the weight to get under 60kg/131lbs. yeah, i finally FINALLY lost those damn pounds. not that i was so happy with it.. i just knew it wouldn't last ( Read more... )

AMAZING http://photobucket.com/albums/c17/thindreams/

tomorrow is the last day i can eat what i want. my new diet starts tuesday.

please feel free to add me when you feel you got something in common with me or wish to tell me, show me, teach me things or whatever. i'd appreciate every advice or information.
don't bother to comment any negative things; i'll just ignore you.

just add me, i'll add you back