he's back

cutting

did you ever hurt so bad you just couldn’t stand it, felt so bad inside that you thought you’d burst? Emotions scratch themselves open inside, gouges of pain that just expands and bleed and never get smaller. Trying to make your thoughts go away, turn myself into someone who doesn’t think, but acts on impulse.

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http://i6.tinypic.com/123022d.jpg

i have my tattoo.

it is on my right side, next to my hip
i love it.

ps. this will have to do, cause i cant figure out how to put them on.
so click the link damn you.

pps. it is the newest sex.

four people remembered my birthday.
a record.
thank you:
deanne
julie
amy
holly

im going to go die sleep now.
bye bye.

i feel like shite

ayye.

i do this every so often,
but ive decided i'm too emo.
&& i should stop being emo
even though this will fail.
i have deicded all the same.
but o well.
this is just random babber.
it should be ignored.
ayye.

*i hate myself and i want to die*

i cant handle it. not again. i know what will happen. its just the same thing over and over again. i ruin everything. no matter what it is. i manage to ruin it. i should see anyone. i should be alone. atleast then the only person i can hurt is myself. and thats so much better than anyone else.

i know my life isnt ( Read more... )

someone help please?
anyone?
no? 
okay then.
i'll just continue what i was doing.

*hides from world* 

Schizotypal Personality Disorder - individual is uncomfortable in close relationships, has thought or perceptual distortions, and peculiarities of behavior.

im officially schizotypal
which means i canthave close relationships with anyone.
which is why i cant have a sexual relationship with anyone.
&& is why i cheat on anyone that gets close to me.
which ( Read more... )