I hate not being in control of my life... and right now I have officially lost control of what is about to happen to me. It's not fair, fun, or pleasing. All this work to have someone else have the choice right now

I was on my way home this morning after an evening of drinking with some good friends. I was busy trying to figure out if I had done anything to make a total ass of myself when I began thinking that no, no I don't drink enough to be that stupid and if someone else thinks I was dumb fuck 'em because I had fun. I think that I over analyze ( Read more... )

I have been hermiting and spending time with a very select few. And by select few I mean one person, and the people that live where I live, whom I avoid like the plague more often than not ( Read more... )

It never fails, every time I find a reason to be confident and feel optimistic I find something to come crash down my little tower of accomplishments. Today the bomb was dropped that J G is gonna try to take Ledjin from me. He promised he wouldn't and I didn't believe him... but most of me didn't think he would really try. When he takes him, ( Read more... )

I am really not greedy... other than that this is probably right I guess.

meh

Greed:High

Gluttony:Medium

Wrath:High

Sloth:Low

Envy:Medium

Lust:High

Pride:Medium

The Seven Deadly Sins Quiz on 4degreez.com

"Speak when you are angry and you will make the best speech you will ever regret ( Read more... )

So I had a goal that by this summer I would get into a bikini and be completely comfortable in it. So I was contemplating what type of workout would not only help me reach this goal, but also be one I can actually maintain ( Read more... )

So Thursday I meet with my lawyer again. First meeting was just to discuss terms and blah blah... didn't set her as my lawyer. But with things going how they are now, I have made the choice to move forward with the lawyer and not go with mediation which J G seems to be using as a procrastination factor ( Read more... )

Soooooo I am really dumb when I am emotional. Everyone say's I am gonna break and I felt breakable last night. I hate feeling so vulnerable. I say dumb things and my insecurities are left dangling in the open to be seen. Well this morning I tucked those back away where they belong. Other than feeling awful stupid for being in such a panic last ( Read more... )

So my original plan was to sit at home with my son. Well my father really disagreed with me on that and told me for 45 minutes I should go out and have a good time after this long eventful week. Finally I caved and spent NYE with 1 close friend, her husband, and his co-workers and friends. It wasn't a bad night, but it wasn't exactly a fantabulous ( Read more... )