blah blah blah. thats how stuff has been all week. this week has gone by so fucking slow i can't handle it. i'm just really tired and over worked. the only good thing is tonight i have a private lesson with sensei adam to start my karate lessons. i'm going to kick some serious ass!!!! i'm excited to start some new classes. lacey got mad at me last ( Read more... )

so just cuz i'm "different" i don't get invited to work outtings. like i would go but nobody even asked me if i would like to go to this party-thingy. just because i'm different and i clash with ppl i work with. WTF!!!!! i'm so tired of all this bullshit. i try to be nice and my normal nice-self but nope they still talk shit on me. so fine, i will ( Read more... )

i'm having a hard time sleeping again. well i have always had the problem but its worse now. the longest i have slept straight was an hour. 1 hour straight sleep. then i'm up for a few then i go back to sleep. then i'm up again. i hate this. plus i'm starting to get sick i think. i hate everything and everyone right now

chloe died tonight. my little girl is gone. i'm a freaking mess. what am i going to do without her?!?!!??! i feel so empty and i had to make the decision to put her down. she was on a ventilator cuz her heart stopped and when i walked in, that wasn't my chloebug laying there all stiff and dead looking. so i had them make her not be in pain anymore ( Read more... )

so chloebug is super sick (my cat). she has a liver problem. she was slowly turning yellow this weekend but i couldn't really tell. her mouth looked like she ate squash or something yellow. so i called the vet this morning and made an appointment. so i left work early and when i got in my car it wouldn't start. well it had issues starting. so i ( Read more... )

no more black hair for this girl. as of monday i'm on my way back to blonde hair again. which happens to be my natural color. i also got a new haircut. so the new color is a strawberry blonde. its super cute. i really like it and i got a 20's style haircut to go with it. maybe one day i will not be lazy and put my webcam software on my puter and ( Read more... )

wow so i was just thinking about something and it really freaks me out. it is genetically impossible for my father to be my father. he is 0+ and my mom is/was 0-. i'm B-. one of my parents has to be a B and since i know i'm my moms child, it leaves my dad to be the question. *sigh* i hope my dad is wrong about what blood type my mom is/was. i'm ( Read more... )

yep so i no longer have black hair. its going back to my normal color which is blonde. right now its a strawberry blonde but will fade in like a week. plus i got a hair cut. i needed a really major one to basically cut off all the dead stuff that the black dye caused. i'm really tired sorta. just mentally tired. i know i should really clean/ ( Read more... )

i'm really tired of cleaning up after ppl. especially when i'm not even around and things are all effed up. i'm just tired. i'm tired of the stupid girls here at work that are constantly rude to me. they talk shit about me cuz of how i look and the way i choose to live my life. next time they say something (which will most likely be today) i'm ( Read more... )

why is it that i can sit through movies like star wars and LOTR which are like 318749832 hours long, but i can't sit through a normal movie?!?!?!?!? lacey and i went to see "the forgotten" tonight and i was like uhhh boooorrrriiinnngggg. i swear i have the attention span of a 2 yr old when it comes to movies. *sigh* i'm almost finished with my ( Read more... )