well for those of you who care, here is an update of what has been going on the last 4 months.

well i have been working at the hospital since may. i was working both gayol and the hospital for awhile but i quite gayol the end of june. it was the best feeling ever. i now work more then i ever have in quite a few years. i average at about 55-65 ( Read more... )

here are some lyrics that kinda describe how i have been feeling lately since its hard to put things into words right now. all i can say is, boys are really fucking stupid and like to cause me stress and havoc in my already not so stable life ( Read more... )

i finally got with the times i guess and got myspace.com... my email addy on there is amandlis@hotmail.com... add me to your list if you would like. :)

well i guess things are ok. i might be switching shifts so i will have tue and wed off now. *shrugs* it doesn't matter what days off i have since i don't leave my house much anyways. i called to cancel my cable internet since i have no money its hard to pay for that stuff plus i'm hardly on my computer anymore plus my main C drive is getting ready ( Read more... )

things are ok i suppose. i can move out into that place etc, but i'm not really excited about it. the kids that live next door smoke dope so all the ppl that come in and out of there do that stuff too. i'm not too fond of living next to stuff like that especially if i ever have my nephews come over etc. i'm weird i know. some ppl wouldn't care but ( Read more... )

tonight i was offended by one of the kids i thought was my friend. he is so full of hate towards everyone and everything that is not white etc. he was taking about gays and how its ok for them to go around singing that they are gay etc but you can't say anything about white pride blah blah bullshit like that. he said "what happens if i want to just ( Read more... )

so i get to look at an apartment on sunday. hopefully its cute and i will like it. and if not, i might just have to deal with it. i don't have to pay a deposit or pet deposit since the kid that lives next door works with me at the gas station and he does all the work around the place and the landlord is his good friend. so that will help me save a ( Read more... )

ummm yeah things are ok i guess. still trying to find a new place to live so i can keep with sanity i have left. trying to deal with various things in the meantime as well. my anxiety is out of control. nothing seems to work. the only time i feel better is when i'm in bed and i don't have to see or talk or be around ppl. wtf is wrong with me ( Read more... )

well not much has changed, Jaxson is getting bigger and cuter everyday. umm shawn has been emailing me some this week which makes me very happy. so hopefully we will start talking more again. he was having some serious depression issues so he disappeared for a few months. but i'm glad he is back :) well i'm not sleeping still which isn't new but ( Read more... )