Well i never thought i would say this...

Since my last update Dave and I committed to each other fully.
I Love him. He has seen me in my worst and best.
He has my heart willingly and fully.

Dear Journal ( Read more... )

It is a curse. It's a horrid and viscious cycle that one end. This time im just a body to fill space and a title to fill a void.

Well i was right. Under the same time as the rest. It doesn't even hurt anymore it has become just like the rest of my life routine. I don't know why im writting this it is as pointless as sending out a message in a bottle. I'm dissapearing for a while. I am literally smashed.

I don't trust him.

"Changes"
Three Doors Down.

I'm not suposed to be scared of anything, but I don't know where I am
I wish that I could move but I'm exhausted and nobody understands (how I feel)
I'm trying hard to breathe now but there's no air in my lungs
There's no one here to talk to and the pain inside is making me numb

I try to hold this Under control
They can't help ( Read more... )

Its funny how fast whispers spread. How when they need me i have to drop my world, but how they quickly dispose of me when finished. I've been used all my life, and its really starting to piss me off. Just beings of my status of being single i have to get pushed aside well fuck off. I swear its all building up and im going to completely change to ( Read more... )

Well I see people "in love" surrounding me everywhere were it be the guys, and Diana at work talking about her husband, or the guys talking about there upcomming weddings its everywhere even at work! as well as my pals outside of work lol Mabey it is a sign that i should just keep going on my path alone because it seems to be able to surround me ( Read more... )

Fucked since the day i was born.

Everyone else that has/had turned away from me, and never believed in me. Not the Other way around.