i want really badly not to exist anymore.

i'm scared.

you and me.. we used to be together,
everyday together.. always,
i really feel.. that i'm losing my best friend,
i can't believe this could be the end.
it looks as though you're letting go.
don't speak - no doubt.

nothing seems to have any point anymore.

might edit later. but again, there is no fucking pointi feel like i'm going to vomit up my ( Read more... )

mum is out somewhere with her friend. lara's at home with her baby, which is where she should be. this left me and my violent psychotic chubby younger brother, josh, together. i was on the internet, moping like the pathetic little emo bitch that i am, and he was in his room listening to ja rule with the volume on max. i got bored because no one was ( Read more... )

oh, give me the chair,
a lethal injection,
a swing from a rope if you dare.i have the most massive headache. you couldn't even begin to imagine. i'm still wearing this fucking suit from last night. i feel so seedy and groggy and tired and just... horribly empty and lonely. i have to start thinking about what i'm going to say at her thing. hm, ( Read more... )

now it hits me. my head feels like its going to pop. like i have an elastic band around my neck. my heart has sunken to the pit of my stomach and is being just fucking eaten up by various acids. my body feels limp. i'm too devastated to cry. i sit here in this tiny stuffy hot dark room feeling utterly alone and just so fucking sad. this feeling is ( Read more... )

i couldn't sleep well last night. too many thoughts stumbling through my head. i'd slip away for ten minutes then wake up again... look at the paterns made on the wall by the orange street lights through the blinds. i love listening to night sounds. silence and crickets and lone cars zooming past and dogs barking. i became fed up with the ritual ( Read more... )

last night i sat on a large platform at flinders street station, waiting for the next train. not to take me home as such, just to take me anywhere. just to take me. i sat there, in the middle of a painted green seat. i moved my eyes from the ground, to the seat and noticed 'frank 4 laura 4 ever' chipped into the paint. but on the other side of me, ( Read more... )