i've been feeling pretty overwhelmed lately. i feel as if, while the semester has only really just begun, it's so close to ending at the same time. the last two weekends jason was here, so those 2/3 weeks flew by, and this past weekend i spent studying for my first round of exams this week. as soon as they're over, i'm flying to new york with my ( Read more... )

 schools hard and i just want this semester to end right now. i dont feel motivated anymore and i cant seem to bring myself to study anymore. I dont like what Im learning and im wondering if its just because im not doing well with it or I just wont be happy continuing my life doing it. Ever since i was a kid i didnt feel like i was learning if i ( Read more... )

grades and classes are really bringing me down lately, but everything else brings me up somehow. i like having a close group of friends from high school, as well as a totally new group of friends. it occured to me the other night that most of the people i spend my days with i only met within the past year. and i guess it seems silly, but it really ( Read more... )

 hmf...life never stops amazing me. this weekend was really fun for me, and also kind of opened my eyes to how quickly my world can completely change. i went to boston for the weekend to see jason, and it was exactly what i needed. i didnt stop smiling until the moment i walked back through security in the airport last night. we went for cute ( Read more... )

i came home to study this weekend, mostly, actually not really, but i cant seem to concentrate on anything. womp womp. i spent last night with my parents, and today car shopping with my dad and doing laundry and eating takeout with them. it's nice to see them and spend time with them, even if we almost died 5000 times on the way home driving ( Read more... )

 i really don't know how i manage to lead the life i live........its so weird to think how much things change and how much theyre gonna continue to change...but i really feel like my life just keeps getting better every day, and i dont know what i did to deserve it but shitttt, i'll take it. i havent even been here for a month and i feel like i ( Read more... )

today one year ago brought a 180 change on my life. in some ways im completely different, in other ways im exactly the same. i'm excited but worried too. i'm curious to see what this year decides to throw at me and if it changes me so drastically yet again. but no matter what comes, now i know that i can take anything- and for that i'm thankful.

my life is busy.... and different. 
somehow i feel like i got so used to making a life of my own that i feel like i can't/won't let anyone in now.
i mean i want to, but at the same time i just want to run for the hills

it seems like more and more every day i learn how alone i am in my stroll through life. yeah, people are there to keep me company and make me smile and keep my head up when it's down.. but they come and go, and they aren't always reliable no matter how much i'd hope they are. i'm just glad i'm finally okay with that and that i'm strong enough to ( Read more... )

boca life has been interesting to say the least in the past week and a half. my freshman year of college is over and needless to say i feel like i've grown exponentially compared to my past few teenage years, but at the same time have become a thousand times more immature. it's a great combination, in my opinion. the last week or so has been filled ( Read more... )