vegetarian, thin, drunk, studious (says a lot that I can't spell it), with good friends and people that care about me, gorgeous hair and beautiful clothes and  jewelary, good skin and teeth, moralicious and fun.

The tickets just came. I've been thinking about you a lot. Detatched from the real world. Downing pints and getting no drunker. My head's somewhere else, you see. I think you're dying to be away from me. Actually. . . I think were over. I feel sore. Slightly panicked, quite raw. I've had goosebumps for 24 hours, im feverish and freezing, I'm sick ( Read more... )

The sky is yellow this morning and I watch as your fingernails pull apart clouds. My head is so waterlogged. Lay on the grass and feed the earth an eternity of ache. Suck me clean again. Do you taste faith? Reality is umbilical but in my dreams I’ll fly away. You’ll never know me like they do. Forgive my mindlessness and bathe me in cosmetic ( Read more... )

Materially you sound pretty sorted! The home remedies are a bit odd, are you planning on getting sick a lot? I wouldn't buy that! Materially, I have nothing, well not nothing, that sounds really ungrateful, i have a pair of doc martens and a laptop but no property, no car, not anything I could ever sell if I decided to get a heroin habit. . . Comes ( Read more... )

 Need to get thin. Plans make my head hurt and I never seem to stick to them. Urgh. I ache. Just need to remember how much better not eating feels than eating.

 Ode to a life of cigarettes, gum and diet red bull ( Read more... )

So saturday, I got really drunk and tried to throw myself off a bridge. They arrested me and put me in the cells for the night. I banged my head against the walls til it split open and tried to chew through my wrist. They said I had to stay until Monday morning and go to court for breach of the peace, but I saw the doctor and they sent me to a CPN ( Read more... )

Rihanna - Question Existing
"Dear diary,
It's Robyn.
Entertaining is something i do for a living.
It's not who i am.
I like to think that I'm normal.
I laugh.
I get mad.
I hurt.
I think guys suck sometimes. "
http://www.songlyrics.com/song-lyrics/Rihanna/Good+Girl+Gone+Bad/Question+Existing/260810.html

Robyn - Robyn is Here
"Robyn is here
Robyn is here ( Read more... )

I  am not a morning person. I never cut my hair. I'm suicidal half of the time. The other half of the time I'm too happy to concentrate. I can and do drink more red wine than anyone I've ever met. I fall down a lot. I cry when I feel sorry for myself. I think other people are stupid. I've cheated on every boyfriend I've ever had. I'm really selfish ( Read more... )

I went into uni to work on our presentation. I'd done all the work the night before so I basically just had to stick it onto slides. I'd said to HER I'd meet her once I'd finished and go to her parents and drink mulled wine. T.jay called saying he was at someones flat and could he meet me in an hour so I said sure just come to uni and get me, I'm ( Read more... )