i hate myself and i want to die

finally a significant amount of fat is melting off of me

i don't know how to refrain from bawling my eyes out 6 hours a day over practically nothing and it's fucking up relationships i have. i have no idea why i am so emotionally unstable. half of the time i KNOW i have absolutely nothing to be upset over. but i overanalyze everything. my brain has this way of bending everything around so everything and ( Read more... )

to most, i recently fell off of the planet. in actuality i've been starving and exercising until i pass out, binging and purging, or too high to give a fuck. i'm not sure what made me relapse...something in me just clicked and maybe a couple weeks after this i began to slowly withdraw from everything else. i'm also not sure WHY, seeing as i have ( Read more... )

to do:

get a job
lose weight
buy weed
buy more clothes
get license

this is an endless cycle