I'm very happy right now. my job is going very well. things are working out and they feel like they are improving. I don't want devon to leave but she'll be back! school starts next week which blows but oh well. life is going to get more interesting and we are ALL going to be growing up.

i feel like throwing up right now. I can't believe what some people can do to me, how they can make me feel like such shit and how little they know about me. I dread the last day and it feels so damn close.

FUCK!

lesson learnt:

again

stop expecting things to happen when they just clearly aren't going to.

its been a while since i've even looked at this site. crazy. many things are going on in my head right now. mainly the future of friends and myself. i'm so scared for everything. i don't want to lose what i love and cherish most in life, the most important people in my life now. i'm staring to realize i need to figure out what i want out of life, ( Read more... )

Graduation was awesome. I've never felt to nervous and happy at the same time. i frekaing frogot i had to shake the ladys hand and she had to remind me. i'm a looser. THe 10 min after graduation was the best and all after that it wasn't what i expected, at all. I expected it to be spent with the 'high school sweet heart' and be kissing all night ( Read more... )

Things are completely chaning. 360 degrees in about 5 days. graduation on thursday. damn. I'm really scared about the actual process. I don't want to be left standing alone while everyone rushes to eachother but i dont really have any one to go and find, except my parents. I'm not really looking forward to anything the next couple weeks. teller ( Read more... )

I haven't been online for a while. 81 e-mail and only 1 was a real one, from bank of america ( Read more... )

life is whatever you make it

Yo Yo J-A-Y, I flow sick ( Read more... )

Life is a big fucking bitch!

what a great year and 1/2 anniversary. couldn't of asked for more. today was just filled with so much excitement and love has been in the air alllllllll day long! I'm so glad i can go to bed knowing someone loves me and would do anything for me..