just told my mom about langerado. it did not go over well. but thanks to the millions of other bad things i've done without her permission (skydiving, nose ring, camping, road tripping, signing up for uraguay, etc.), i think she's probably getting used to the fact that if i know she's going to say no, i'll just do whatever i want without telling ( Read more... )

HOLY FUCKING SHIT. i bought my ticket to langerado. i'm excited beyond words. most ridiculous lineup EVER.

that is all.

i have nothing to say. one minute my life is in shambles, the next i'm skipping around loving everyone and everything. i think i maybe got myself in over my head, and its too late to do anything about it now but to try and hold on for dear life and enjoy the ride.

last night was a night about free love and self expression. self expression all over the fridge and all over my jacket and in the air and in our sweat as we danced and danced to a crappy dj but noone cared because all we heard was sunshine and laughter. it was a night about strangers who are just friends we haven't met and taking people you just ( Read more... )

i don't know what to do. at first i thought that whatever non-relationship thing we had was worth salvaging, but the more time that goes by that we don't talk, the more hurt and angry i get. i just want the truth and i feel like i haven't gotten it. i know what no matter what i actually decide now, it will all go out the window when i see him ( Read more... )

i feel like such a selfish doofus. a boy i really like, and more importantly, trust, has told me that he likes spending time with me and that i make him happy and that he needs a little bit of time to himself to figure some stuff out. he said he's not seeing anyone at all, including his friends (who i know and who can vouch for this) and he really ( Read more... )

i've been sick and sitting around by msyelf for 2 days and all i can think is how i don't understand. if two people have fun together and like being together, why shouldn't they be? why aren't we? it's been a week since i saw him last. doesn't he miss me? or it? because i do. because the past week of my life has been hell between my allergies and ( Read more... )

i knew it was too good to be true. i am sad. i will be fine. as always.

i hate when someone leads you to believe they care but when you're going through something rough and need them the most they're too busy and selfish to even ask you if you're ok. i understand isn't enough. even if you can't be here, tell me you're sorry. tell me you wish you could and you hope i'm alright. you didn't even fucking ask so you don't ( Read more... )

i'm trying to hold myself together but its not easy. in addition to being sick (another cold or flu or whatever the fuck i seem to be getting all the damn time), my cat's been in the hospital all week. she's been hooked up to ivs and such. she has pancreatitis. she's going home today because she seems better, but it still worries me. she's barely ( Read more... )