it's so awkward in this house as of recently ( Read more... )

thanks to two certain people in my past...it's impossibly for me to get close to anyone. fuck you both for ruining me.

I tried to get close to Julie. I let my wall down, and things are slowly falling apart. this is where I put my tail between my legs and run away before I end up getting hurt.

well, Kaitlyn and I officially "broke up" if you want to call it that. we have had our problems the past 9 years and have worked thru the same thing over and over again; this time I didn't want to do it anymore so I called it quits. shitty thing is, we live together. it's not awkward cuz she's rarely ever home. but I have to admit, I miss her ( Read more... )

I definitely miss my bestfriend...

so I got my nipples pierced last night. it actually didn't hurt too bad. I just hope everything goes okay. everyone said I'd be in pain today, yet I don't feel a thing. weird. they look so damn good! yes, that was my christmas present to myself ( Read more... )

I don't know how much longer I can do this. I'm about to break. I'm trying so hard to hold it in but it's slowly leaking out ( Read more... )

I don't want to give up & I don't want to let go. I feel if I do either, I won't have anything left.

I usually write in my deadjournal but since it doesn't seem to want to work on my sidekick I've resorted to lj ( Read more... )

its been over 3 years. why do I continue to make myself feel this way? why do I continue to let you do this to me? you give me even more hope when you tell me you start developing feelings for me. you toss me around like a ping pong ball. yet, as stupid as I am I let you walk all over me knowing you're doing it. I don't want to play your games ( Read more... )

I can't remember a time when I could actually stop & breath without stressing over something ( Read more... )