I had a dream last night that we were as close as we used to be. that every 27th we went to dinner like we had planned. that you came to me saying that you love me and you're sorry you pushed me away. you said some ofthe things you used to say to me. like "you mean everything to me Stephinator." what happened??

how can I make this reality??? =/

ya'll dont see it...but every single one of you is pushing me back to north carolina in one way or another ( Read more... )

nightmares are a bitch ( Read more... )

I was talking to my dad the other day about me becoming a server and how I'm nervous...he replys with "why? you'll do great. you have a great personality. everyone will love you." I think that was the only good thing he's ever said to me. what has gotten into him ( Read more... )

I. just. want. to. die.

ya know, after these past three weeks...I didn't know I still had any tears left in me ( Read more... )

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house ( Read more... )

this is going to make me sound like a horrible daughter and so selfish...

but I want to be the only girl in his life. I want my daddy back. ='[

I have this state of mind of been stuck in for a few days now. the one where I'm not suicidal, but I don't give a fuck what happens to me. I honestly can't see myself in the next few months. I hate this. what I need most right now is to be around my friends, yet I just keep pushing them away ( Read more... )

I should be grateful for what I have at the moment.

..but all I want is to go back to NC. :'o(

this isnt my home anymore and hasnt been since the day I left.