I finally figured out what needs to be done to get what I want... and just when I'm being strong enough to do it, he looks at me with those blue/green eyes smiles, and I melt all over again.

I need a fucking backbone...

Someone once asked me if I thought it was possible to find your soulmate, but not be destined to be spend your life with them, and I thought they were the craziest person I had ever met. Now? Not so much... I mean, think about it.

Some people strive to always be right, and although it may feel good to win a few arguments here and there... it really sucks when you're always right about something you so desperately want to be wrong about. I need to get out of this hole I've dug so deep, the one where I fall for the most inappropriate guys ever. Ssee the thing is, I see the ( Read more... )

I don't know how to get away from being the girl you "just wanna have sex with". I'm not having sex with him, I've never even kissed him... but all our convesations end up being "inappropriate" and I don't know how to steer away from that. I'm afraid the reason he hasn't asked me out on a date is because he only see's me in a sexual way. But I ( Read more... )

The last time I got this jealous... things didn't work out in my favor... I'm taking deep breaths, and staying as quiet as possible ( Read more... )

I should've read my last post over and over again... to remind myself to do it the right way...

i hope it's save-able.

 You know how when you just "know"... well I've never really known... but now I know... and I love that I know... 'cause since I know... I know I'm gonna do it right this time..............

When you know.... you know... <3

I met someone who makes me laugh like a five year old getting what she wished for on her birthday... someone who is just the right ammount of "flirt", and with the most beautiful eyes I've ever seen.

...I'm just saying.

I used to feel so much, and now I don't feel at all. You took my pain away my favorite, slowy... but you did it. I have no doubt in my heart you are constantly looking over me and keeping me safe. I have no reservations about my faith in you. I know there are people who are hurting still, and I know it's taking a lot longer for you to help them ( Read more... )

I think my life changed exactly one year ago. I changed a year ago. Everything changed a year ago. This morning I woke up an put the radio on. Two Step was playing... I miss you.

...Things are just different.

I really miss you.