trapped between these worlds of real and better and normal. curious about how values have value and life demands choices. priorities rule everything in a scenario which needs selectivity. is it better to be real or best to be better when ease is desired and assurance is expected? i search for peace and freedom but all the available paths have roots ( Read more... )

megan contacted me. that felt good. i responded, but havent heard back yet. that doesnt feel so good ( Read more... )

if you turn the music up loud enough you can drown out the whole world.

i cant talk about ti to anyone because they all believe thats it as perfect as i make it seem.
im just getting sort of tired. but i have to hold out, i have to be strong, i have to make this work.

i know.
i know it will be hard. but,
i know what i want. i know what i need to do.
im just going to hold on as long as he will let me.
id be a fool to let something like this go.
im not giving up without a fight.

this weekend was nice. scott came home with me friday night to meet the parentals and such so that i can go up to scottsboro on break. we had fun just sitting around and talking ( Read more... )

ok well this post will be public. it is acting as a disclaimer to any rumor you may have heard about me and a certain individual ( Read more... )

not sure if i still owe an explanation. karma's a killer i suppose ( Read more... )

nah mah ste! this is the best song ever! well maybe not ever...but i really like it ( Read more... )

i had a really weird dream last night. at the end i, for some reason, felt like i was saying goodbye to all that was good and wholesome about childhood and i was moving on to unhappiness and uncontrollable disaster. it felt so real too. ive been to that house so many times before, even if only in dreams. and i felt like last night was really the ( Read more... )

ok kids its not that difficult. you have been coming to practices for weeks, you had to try out to be apart of this thing, you had to buy shoes, i dont understand why people slack off at practices or dont even dress out for them ( Read more... )