I realized something today.

everyones right.

im a terrible person

sometimes i think even dustin thinks so.

i guess im just a waste of flesh...space..air..emotions.

Ashlyn wrote me  a letter...saying something about how im a horrible person..and all this bullshit that who knows who fed to her.

i wish she knew that ( Read more... )

what would you do if i::

1. died from natural causes..
2. kissed you..
3. lived next door to you..
4. started smoking..
5. stole something..
6. was hospitalized..
7. ran away from home..
8. got into a fight and you weren't there?..

what do you think of my::

9. personality..
10. eyes..
11. hair..
12. laugh..
13. family..

would you::

14. be my friend?
15. keep a ( Read more... )

It seems they’ve finally won

. They’ve finally broken me down.

Everything I once loved about myself is shattered.

I never understood what I did to make them so angry, or whatever it was that they were with me. I can only remember being a lonely scared, and depressed little girl with no hopes, dreams or motivation.

I can remember asking for help ( Read more... )

Dustin keeps guilt tripping me.

everytime he asks me if im doing okay when he calls me, i usuually say no, because..well the last few days havnt been going very good for me.

and he goes "well i havnt been good at all since i left your house"

im sorry but guilt trips will do nothing but make me mad.

it wont get us back together.

and i dont think ( Read more... )

dustin and i broke up.

its killing me

right now i feel like dieing.

maybe i just will.

What Would You Do If…
1. I died from natural causes:
2. I kissed you:
3. I lived next door to you:
4. I started smoking:
5. I stole something:
6. I was hospitalized:
7. I ran away from home:
8. I got into a fight and you weren't there?:.
What Do You Think Of My…
9. Personality:
10. Eyes:
11. Hair:
12. Laugh:
13. Family:
Would You…
14. Be my friend?
15. Keep a ( Read more... )

Goth--
Do you wear black eyeliner?: Yeah
Do you own any black clothing?: Yeah
Do you think about death often?: Not too often.
Do you want to die?: sometimes.
Are you a social outcast?: depends on what you consider a social outcast
Are you pale?: Unfortunatly not
Do you like Hot Topic?: Meh

--Skater Punk--
Can you skateboard?: Nope
How often do you wear Vans ( Read more... )

This weekend is my friend Tommys grad party. Its going to be fun.

I might possibly be driving to Henrietta tomarrow to go get Meghan. I miss her so much. I hate that almost all of my good friends live in the Syracuse or Rochester area.Its balls. Actually correction..all of my good friends because Carissa is more then likely moving out there to be ( Read more... )

July 2nd...i did merch at edge fest.

my hot body did all the selling...

its not like enough is enough has any talent at all....

god.

im kidding of course.

I let brandy and nate dog sit for me, i think brandy had fun. She bought Pollie a shirt and a new collar and even a leash.

how cute.