its so pathetic that i still think of leah.

i feel so guilty for updating on livejournal.

i just wish i had someone to like.

i fucking hope new years isnt shitty, that is if i can find someone to hangout with.

I love her with all my heart. It's been four months now, and I hate the fact that I always seem upset. I just wish for us to make less mistakes and be more happy so we can have a healthier relationship. I don't want her to ever give up on me. She honestly is my one true love ( Read more... )

yeaaa so updateeee.

Im not really addicted to lj as much as i was the past three years, which is really good. mmhmm

i just dont think theres any need in updating every week about the little details in my life.

8(

It seems like every year christmas gets more shitty.

it's like my life has no point and the last week hasn't been reality but a dream.

guess what i did..
i fucking told her.

through aim.

things might go pretty well, except for the whole me being shy part..

omgg she still doesn't know..

but like 5 more people on my bus do though.

ughh idk what to do.

im too shy.

it felt so good to get some things off my chest today, but i've just begun. >_<

ehh.

yea.

idk what im gonna do tomorrow.. i'll probably just say nothing.. depends on the moment.

i feel bad because alot of my friends have their birthdays in november/december and i havent really gotten anyone a gift. im so sorryy.

ehh i'm so lame.

i wish i wasn't so weird, had a normal personality ya know?

yupp, im pretty much hopeless.