things have most definitely changed...mais, c'est la vie. et la vie est si belle!!

beautiful but crazier than anyone you will ever know ( Read more... )

i love coffee

tonight was so fun! town was kinda boring in the beginning until max sprinted out of nowhere to where we were sitting and asked us to go take the wine he got to the woods. so we rushed after him and then we saw nina! woohoo! we ran to the woods and drank some damn good wine which was cheap, too! so for the rest of the evening i had a drunken lovely ( Read more... )

things are better

i'm slipping. i never thought i would do it again but i am falling back into my old ways. i thought i was stronger than this. only a few people know for sure what i'm talking about but i guess people can figure it out by now. i am not going to do it again. i am so much stronger than that and i'm not gonna pull myself back into hell. i'm over with ( Read more... )

why are things changing so drastically?

i feel so sick and i want to throw up but i can't
ugh i hate this

and when there is no hope

i decided i would update, since it has been so long, and, because i don't really have anything else to do. things are going well. i am getting better and i am getting through this. i'd say that's an accomplishment. this year started out pretty bad, but i snapped myself out of it. i think i realized what a mess i got myself into. okay, enough about ( Read more... )