So, I may not be in the right frame of mind right now.

But maybe I need to be in this frame of mind to write this, fuck knows I've been suppressing everything for far too long.

So.

I'd like to start off by introducing myself, because I think you've forgotten who I am, maybe it's because I've moved away, and you think that means I have become a ( Read more... )

Oh god how I loathe myself.

I've just had the best day, watching Elijah with one of the best and closest people in my life, eating lemon sorbet and talking about everything. You make me feel so happy and I thank you for that, thank you so much, you help me in so many ways.

But now I'm sitting here and this whole mood drop thing hits again and I feel ( Read more... )

What is a tether?

I think I'm at the end of it. But what the fuck is it?

Hang on.

Okay, Google says its a leash-like object used to restrain animals, like horses. It's also apparently a character in a Marvel comic. Cool.

Seemingly pointless, but if I'm going to be a metaphor, I'd like to understand what the words mean. Nobody actually uses tether ( Read more... )

So, I tried to kill myself last night.

It was kind of surreal.

You're such a cunt.

x

You ever have that thing, where you've stayed up way too late, too late that you felt tired about 2 hours ago, but now you're wide awake.

Anyway, you're sitting there and you're listening to this song, this beautiful song. And it just has that effect on you, heightens your senses and emotions and damn near fucking everything.

And in the daytime, ( Read more... )

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I'm in it right now ( Read more... )

Hey there. <3

Recent events: I have dyed my hair (again ;D)
                            I have a cat on my bed.
                            I have had the realisation that I just can't do this english essay. -_-

In other news: Just in case you hadn't all realised today:

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY IN 3 DAAAAYS!!!

Sorry if I bugged you guys XD I am very excited. ( Read more... )

Today has been pretty emotional. I've let myself down and its time to start really sorting out this mess of a life I've got myself into.

But alas. Due to my absence from internet, LIFE HAPPENED.

I did things.

Here is photographic evidence. :D


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I'm not feeling touch,
I'm not making that much,
And I guess I am blessed,
But sometimes its just hard to see it as such.

I'm stuck here alone in the traffic lines,
While couples in love in the H-O-V fly by,
I don't get it,
I'm not asking for much,
But everybody wants to just have something.

So I'll be picking me up,
Breaking me down,
I was lost, was i found?
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